I Really Need to Learn this Lesson - Ryan
I have a confession... I live most of my life in pain avoidance mode. Here is the problem it is a really dumb way to live... For example... two years ago I left a piece of glass in my foot for over a year... because I thought it would go away... I finally had to get my foot operated on when the glass almost severed the artery in my foot...
The operation was pleasant it started with multiple injections into the bottom of my foot directly into the arch... I was tempted to kick the doctor in the face... Then he proceeded to dig a larger hole in my foot to remove the shard of glass that had calloused over a year's time in my foot...
Today... I had an emergency root canal... also not a pleasant experience... more financial pain then physical... Here is the problem though... you may ask what happened what was the emergency...
Well in January of 2008 ... that is right 2008 I had a filling fall out... and I thought ahhhh that will be no big deal... again see earlier in this blog this is a stupid way to live... because a hole in your mouth does not just go away all a hole in your mouth does is simply decay and get infected...
So the same novacain needles that pierced the arch of my foot last year.. today were injected multiple times into my mouth...
Here is what I have learned in my life again and again and again... Pain avoidance is stupid and only causes more pain in the end... Now my prayer is this truth does not just smack me in the mouth literally and wallet again... but it actually leads to repentance and changed behaviors...
Here is what scares me most... when I get real honest I don't just suffer from pain avoidance with my foot and mouth... I also do with people I love. And just like my foot and mouth it only causes more pain in the end... A good counselor would probably call that people pleasing... the Bible calls that sin, idolatry and fear of man.... Here is my prayer today.. that I would learn my lesson... and have a big enough view of God, that I dealt with pain at the bite size level... before it infected everything and becomes a root canal!
